Crash and Repeat

Lights buzz, but my head stays dim,

I lost the fight with sleep again.

Worn-out bones and a vacant stare,

Breathing in a static air.

I’m running on fumes, I know it, I feel it,

Hands shake, heart breaks, but I just conceal it.

Crash—get up—repeat,

I burn out just to feel relief.

Close my eyes, but I never sleep,

Just another night lost in the deep.

Too tired to dream, too awake to fall,

Every thought's just a wrecking ball.

I count the cracks in the ceiling light,

Like I could find meaning in sleepless nights.

I’m stuck in a loop, I break it, replace it,

Numb to the pain, but I still embrace it.

Crash—get up—repeat,

I burn out just to feel relief.

Close my eyes, but I never sleep,

Just another night lost in the deep.

"You should rest, you should sleep…" (whispered)

"But I only crash and repeat."

Crash—get up—repeat,

I burn out just to feel relief.

Close my eyes, but I never sleep,

Just another night lost in the deep.

Lights buzz, but my head stays dim