Intrusive thoughts, rapid heartbeat
I’m out of control whenever we meet
Feeling like I’m about to explode,
We stuck it out, couldn’t be here without,
The fear of being alone
My heart is a ghost town
Whenever you speak I drown it out
Everything’s so different now
We’ve grown to become so distant now
My tears are like faucets,
There’s an overbearing tightness in my chest,
I’ve grown accustomed to the idea of only what you knew best
Trying to fight for something that’s no longer right
The emptiest parts of me
Got lost in a tragedy, and everything we used to be
I stared into the eyes of my own pain
I embraced it, you never faced it
You’ve caused me nothing but infinite pain
There’s nothing you can take, what more could you possibly gain?
Longing to be loved, to be seen
Now I can only find that version of you, in my dreams
loving you is a sin, you breathe me in just to breathe me out again
My heart is a ghost town,
spent weeks, month, years
killing myself, trying to love someone who’s no longer around
Couldn’t even accept the love I had to give
I had to find it in my heart to find the strength, to forgive
The reoccurring rejection was a reminder of all the suffering I had to relive
Constantly holding onto the slightest ounce of hope that maybe we could work it out
Causing reasonable doubt,
But your detached heart created a proper crash out
The emptiest parts of me
Got lost in a tragedy, and everything we used to be
I stared into the eyes of my own pain
I embraced it, you never faced it
You’ve caused me nothing but infinite pain
There’s nothing you can take, what more could you possibly gain?
Longing to be loved, to be seen
Now I can only find that version of you, in my dreams
loving you is a sin, you breathe me in just to breathe me out again
I’ve become so desensitized
Adapted to your afflicting conditions
I look into your eyes, I see a reflection of all your occurring restrictions
The greater divide between you and I, makes it easier for me to longer comply
The stronger I become, and reminded why,
This is an apology to myself
and for all the reasons I should’ve said goodbye
You’ve caused me nothing but infinite pain
There’s nothing you can take, what more could you possibly gain?
Longing to be loved, to be seen
Now I can only find that version of you, in my dreams
We’ve grown to become so distant now
My heart is a ghost town