My heart Is a Ghost Town

Intrusive thoughts, rapid heartbeat

I’m out of control whenever we meet

Feeling like I’m about to explode,

We stuck it out, couldn’t be here without,

The fear of being alone

My heart is a ghost town

Whenever you speak I drown it out

Everything’s so different now

We’ve grown to become so distant now

My tears are like faucets,

There’s an overbearing tightness in my chest,

I’ve grown accustomed to the idea of only what you knew best

Trying to fight for something that’s no longer right

The emptiest parts of me

Got lost in a tragedy, and everything we used to be

I stared into the eyes of my own pain

I embraced it, you never faced it

You’ve caused me nothing but infinite pain

There’s nothing you can take, what more could you possibly gain?

Longing to be loved, to be seen

Now I can only find that version of you, in my dreams

loving you is a sin, you breathe me in just to breathe me out again

My heart is a ghost town,

spent weeks, month, years

killing myself, trying to love someone who’s no longer around

Couldn’t even accept the love I had to give

I had to find it in my heart to find the strength, to forgive

The reoccurring rejection was a reminder of all the suffering I had to relive

Constantly holding onto the slightest ounce of hope that maybe we could work it out

Causing reasonable doubt,

But your detached heart created a proper crash out

The emptiest parts of me

Got lost in a tragedy, and everything we used to be

I stared into the eyes of my own pain

I embraced it, you never faced it

You’ve caused me nothing but infinite pain

There’s nothing you can take, what more could you possibly gain?

Longing to be loved, to be seen

Now I can only find that version of you, in my dreams

loving you is a sin, you breathe me in just to breathe me out again

I’ve become so desensitized

Adapted to your afflicting conditions

I look into your eyes, I see a reflection of all your occurring restrictions

The greater divide between you and I, makes it easier for me to longer comply

The stronger I become, and reminded why,

This is an apology to myself

and for all the reasons I should’ve said goodbye

You’ve caused me nothing but infinite pain

There’s nothing you can take, what more could you possibly gain?

Longing to be loved, to be seen

Now I can only find that version of you, in my dreams

We’ve grown to become so distant now

My heart is a ghost town