3:47 a.m

Yeah…

Silence loud as sirens in my head

Can’t sleep, can’t breathe, can’t pretend

Uh

Woke up tired of waking up, that’s a ritual

Smile fake, pain permanent, life conditional

Bills talk louder than my friends ever did

Mom says “pray,” but God keep leavin’ me on read

Clock keep tickin’ like it mockin’ my pace

Everybody runnin’ forward, I’m stuck in one place

Got dreams in the backseat, fear drivin’ the whip

Every turn feel wrong, every risk feel like a cliff

I’m broke in more ways than money can show

Confidence bankrupt, heart overdrawn, soul on low

They say “be yourself,” but I don’t know who that is

Just a kid with excuses and a chest full of “what ifs”

I compare my behind-the-scenes to they highlight reels

Then hate myself more for the way that it feels

I’m drownin’ in thoughts but I’m scared of the quiet

‘Cause silence let the truth in—and I riot

3:47 AM, I’m fightin’ my mind

Heart beatin’ too fast, fallin’ behind

I’m holdin’ it together with imaginary glue

Tellin’ everybody “I’m cool,” but it’s not true

3:47 AM, life hittin’ me raw

Anxiety knockin’, kickin’ down doors

If this is livin’, tell me what it’s for

‘Cause I’m tired of hurtin’ and pretendin’ I’m sure

I overthink conversations from years ago

Regret got a voice but it talk like it know me though

Every mistake playin’ back in HD

Brain like a courtroom and I’m always guilty

Pressure on my chest like I’m buried alive

Still expected to smile and say “happy to be alive”

They don’t see the war when I’m walkin’ through crowds

I feel invisible, yet judged so loud

Friends say “it’ll pass,” but they never explain

Why it keep comin’ back in different forms of pain

I tried self-love, it felt forced and fake

Hard to love a mirror you don’t recognize

I’m scared of failin’, but success scare me too

What if I get there and still feel blue?

So I stay in the middle, numb is the zone

Not dead, not alive, just answerin’ phones

If I’m honest, I don’t want advice

I just want someone to sit in the dark for a while

Don’t tell me it’s fine, don’t rush the pain

Just tell me you see me, say my name

3:47 AM, I’m fightin’ my mind

Heart beatin’ too fast, fallin’ behind

I’m holdin’ it together with imaginary glue

Tellin’ everybody “I’m cool,” but it’s not true

3:47 AM, life hittin’ me raw

Anxiety knockin’, kickin’ down doors

If this is livin’, tell me what it’s for

‘Cause I’m tired of hurtin’ and pretendin’ I’m sureMaybe tomorrow I’ll feel okay

Or maybe I’ll just learn how to hide it better

Either way…

Alarm set for 6

Sleep never came