Days like this I just wanna play pretend
I just dont feel like settlin
Sometimes it feels like everything runs against me
Like I’m chasing daylight but the night won’t leave
The silence feels so heavy I could fold under pressure
Tryna hold it together but I’m losin my measure
I feel so annoyed, so aggravated, so suppressed
Like I hold in so much it’s buried in my chest
I can’t breathe easy, like I’m holding my breath
Every inhale feel borrowed, every exhale feel like debt
Like every road I pick got a price I gotta pay
When I talk, I really gotta watch what I say
Its like my brain dont function right, I’m always one step behind
Like I’m thinkin too late while the moment pass me by
Now I’m stuck inside my head and I can’t press rewind
Got a thousand voices talkin, I can’t quiet down my mind
And the louder that it get, the more I fall outta line
I feel relieved like I’m finding peace, but I also feel empty like I’m missing a piece
Like the silence feel different, like I lost something inside
And I don’t know if it’s healing… or if I'm goin numb this time
I been tryna find peace in the quiet
Mind run wild, I can’t hide it
If I feel too much, I go silent
I say I’m fine but I’m lyin
Hold it all in, I don’t even try it
Put a smile on, perfect timin
Gonna play pretend, till i find it.
I don’t even react how I used to
I tell myself, dont let it consume you
I been stuck with no outlet
Every thought turn to a drought quick
Tryna pour but it never come out right
So I dont let it show on the outside
I don’t cry like I did the first time
Nothing is aligning
My words arent rhyming
My time isn't timing
Like a weight with nobody to spot me
Tryna work it out but I cant find the lock key
And I keep tellin myself that I’m fine, but it’s not me
I been tryna find peace in the quiet
Mind run wild, I can’t hide it
If I feel too much, I go silent
I say I’m fine but I’m lyin
Hold it all in, I don’t even try it
Put a smile on, perfect timin
Gonna play pretend, till i find it.