Play Pretend

Days like this I just wanna play pretend

I just dont feel like settlin

Sometimes it feels like everything runs against me

Like I’m chasing daylight but the night won’t leave

The silence feels so heavy I could fold under pressure

Tryna hold it together but I’m losin my measure

I feel so annoyed, so aggravated, so suppressed

Like I hold in so much it’s buried in my chest

I can’t breathe easy, like I’m holding my breath

Every inhale feel borrowed, every exhale feel like debt

Like every road I pick got a price I gotta pay

When I talk, I really gotta watch what I say

Its like my brain dont function right, I’m always one step behind

Like I’m thinkin too late while the moment pass me by

Now I’m stuck inside my head and I can’t press rewind

Got a thousand voices talkin, I can’t quiet down my mind

And the louder that it get, the more I fall outta line

I feel relieved like I’m finding peace, but I also feel empty like I’m missing a piece

Like the silence feel different, like I lost something inside

And I don’t know if it’s healing… or if I'm goin numb this time

I been tryna find peace in the quiet

Mind run wild, I can’t hide it

If I feel too much, I go silent

I say I’m fine but I’m lyin

Hold it all in, I don’t even try it

Put a smile on, perfect timin

Gonna play pretend, till i find it.

I don’t even react how I used to

I tell myself, dont let it consume you

I been stuck with no outlet

Every thought turn to a drought quick

Tryna pour but it never come out right

So I dont let it show on the outside

I don’t cry like I did the first time

Nothing is aligning

My words arent rhyming

My time isn't timing

Like a weight with nobody to spot me

Tryna work it out but I cant find the lock key

And I keep tellin myself that I’m fine, but it’s not me

I been tryna find peace in the quiet

Mind run wild, I can’t hide it

If I feel too much, I go silent

I say I’m fine but I’m lyin

Hold it all in, I don’t even try it

Put a smile on, perfect timin

Gonna play pretend, till i find it.