I was Listening

You say you need healing, lake wind, peace of mind

You light one up just to blur what you feel inside

Say your money straight, but your time feel spent

You providing for your kids, but your spirit bent

Seem like you ain’t livin… youre survivin

You say “fuck a bitch” but your tone say different

You don’t hate love… you just don’t trust who give it

You been crying, but you mask it with distance

Call it paranoia, I can see the resistance

You treat people how they move, that’s defense.

You say you good… I see right through it.

Every “I’m straight” don’t match your truth

You try runnin from pain but it run right with you

You don’t need space… you just need to see it through.

You say you cool… but your words don't lie

You buildin walls but not askin why

If peace real, you don’t gotta prove

I see the hurt… clear through you

You talk about loyalty, money and respect

But you push away anything that might help you reset

You tired, I can tell by the way that you move

Half checked in, half already removed

Say she gotta be silent just to keep it smooth

That ain’t control… you just scared to lose

You carry that weight in the way that you feel.

You ain’t wrong… you just ain’t healed

You been strong so long it don’t feel real

You call it peace but it’s really numb

You want love then get you some

You don’t need the lake…

You need to sit still......

Long enough to breathe.....

Long enough to feel.