Sicka Yew

You came home smellin' like somebody else's sin

I swallowed down the truth & let you back in

Midnight to five, same road, same lie

I waited up every time wonderin' why

Mama's house first, then whoever paid

You built a life on every bed you made

The voices screamed your name from noon til three

But the loudest thing you did was lie to me

I'm sick of you, sicka yew

Sicka the storms you made me walk through

Sicka the ghost you let him turn me to

Done with the maze, done with the bruise

Sicka yew

You handed me a plaque like it was sacred ground

Something stolen off a shelf you found

"I'd choose you again" — you said it straight faced

Left me the next morning without a trace

Four months along & you wore my name

Let me love a child that never came

Crystal clear now what the meth erased

A brilliant mind gone, & nothing replaced

I'm sick of you, sicka yew

Felt nothing when the last wall fell through

Watched you choose the needle over true

Nothin' left to feel, nothin' left to lose

Sicka yew

I stayed when anybody else would've walked

Loved you through the chaos, through the fractured talk

Through every midnight, every stolen thing

Through the kind of hurt that leaves a permanent sting

But the real you finally showed her face

And all that love just couldn't find its place

I'm sick of you, sicka yew

Ain't a single ghost of me that misses you

Closed the book, turned the page, and I'm through

Don't say your name, don't need to

Sicka yew

Sicka, you're a closed door now

No storm, no maze, no reason, no vow

I survived the wreckage you left behind

I'm Sicka yew — and I'm finally fine