#Verse 1
Seven years I changed your diapers, seven years I was your dad
Only father that you knew, best protector that you had
While she rolled bowls in the bathroom, I was cooking every meal
Teaching you the right from wrong, showing you that love is real
Texas don't care 'bout the reasons, just the weed inside her blood
CPS came with their papers, dragged us through the goddamn mud
Living paycheck to paycheck, then the motels when that dried
I was drowning, I was broken, but for you I never cried
#Chorus
Now you're tall as your big sister, saw the pictures, broke my heart
Been over a year since I heard your voice, been over a year apart
They can call you stepchildren, but you'll always be my girls
You took my sense of humor, you took my whole damn world
What kind of dirt did they spread about me?
All I ever did was love
Now the father that I used to be
Feels like a dream I'm waking up from
#Verse 2
You listened to me over mama, took my hobbies, learned my ways
Fifteen now and used to trust me with the weight of all your days
When you needed someone real to talk about the serious things
I was there, not just as father, but the comfort that truth brings
Older sister knew too much, had to grow up way too fast
But you came to me with problems, made those moments always last
I was working, I was trying, I was all you really had
While addiction took your mother, I just wanted to be your dad
System failed us, system broke us, tore apart what we had built
Seven years of bedtime stories, seven years of love and guilt
I was overwhelmed and drowning, should've gotten help back then
But I loved you through the chaos, and I'd do it all again
#Chorus
Now you're tall as your big sister, saw the pictures, broke my heart
Been over a year since I heard your voice, been over a year apart
They can call you stepchildren, but you'll always be my girls
You took my sense of humor, you took my whole damn world
What kind of dirt did they spread about me?
All I ever did was love
Now the father that I used to be
Feels like a dream I'm waking up from
#Bridge
Fifteen and eleven now, growing up without me there
Wonder if you still remember all the lessons that we shared
Older one, you trusted me with secrets, dreams, and fears
Wonder if you know I'd listen through the distance and the tears
You preferred my ear to hers because I took you seriously
Wonder if you still need someone who will hear you genuinely
Sometimes I want back in the dream so desperately
Where I'm still your dad and you're still laughing next to me
#Final Chorus
When you turn eighteen, I hope you'll try to find me
Hope you still can see yourself when you look inside me
They can call you stepchildren, but you'll always be my girls
You took my sense of humor, you took my whole damn world
I hope you carry all the lessons for the rest of your lives
I hope someday you'll understand and maybe we'll survive
Cuz the father that I used to be wasn't just a dream,you made me who I'm supposed to be
WORLDPATTERNZ
