[Intro]
Cold nights
Same street
Heart froze
Can't sleep (mm)
[Verse 1]
I was staring at the ceiling, fan spinning like my head
Phone glow, timeline full of people I resent
Pill bottle on the dresser, little letters in my text
Writing drafts to You, then I never hit send
Mama said pray, I said "yeah, yeah, later"
Running from the pain with a cheap lifesaver
Dark room, dark thoughts, darker behavior
Blamed You, but I really just hated my nature
[Chorus]
On these cold nights, I was fighting with my shadow
Lost sight, I was walking in the gravel
I was yelling at the sky, "where You at though?"
Now I'm on my knees, whisper, "God, I need You back, yo"
Cold nights, but the fire getting brighter (woah)
Old lies starting to sound like a liar
I was falling, but You caught me in the spiral
Cold nights, new light, new Bible
[Verse 2]
I remember screaming, "If You're real, then speak"
Silence in the air, just the buzz from the screen
Tears in my hoodie, salt stains on the sleeve
I was drowning in the doubt, still afraid to believe
Then my brother hit my line like, "You good, lil man?"
Pulled up, played a song, said, "I used to feel that"
I saw scars on his wrist, same story, different map
Said, "God met me in the dark, didn't wait for me to act"
[Pre-Chorus]
I thought I had to climb out to be worthy
Tried to clean my own hands, died thirsty
Then I felt that peace hit slow, heavy
Like a weight off my chest, heart steady (yeah)
[Chorus]
On these cold nights, I was fighting with my shadow
Lost sight, I was walking in the gravel
I was yelling at the sky, "where You at though?"
Now I'm on my knees, whisper, "God, I need You back, yo"
Cold nights, but the fire getting brighter
Old lies starting to sound like a liar
I was falling, but You caught me in the spiral
Cold nights, new light, new Bible
[Bridge]
I still get low, I still get tired
Some days faith feel thin like wire
But I look back at the pit, at the prior
And I know I ain't hold on, You the lifer (yeah)
[Chorus]
On these cold nights, I ain't fighting with my shadow
Got light when I'm walking through the gravel
I was yelling at the sky, "where You at though?"
Now I feel Your hand every step, every bad road
Cold nights, but the fire getting brighter (brighter)
Old lies running out of satire
I was falling, but You caught me in the spiral
Cold nights, new light, I'm a child, though (yeah)