[Verse 1]
You trace my tattoos like scripture
Fingertips soft against ruined skin
Like maybe if you memorize the damage
You’ll understand the war I’m in
And your hand rests over my chest at night
Feeling my heart misfire inside
While I stare holes into the ceiling
Wondering why you still try
Cause loving me is like
Holding water in your lungs
Beautiful for a second
Then slowly coming undone
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[Pre-Chorus]
But you pull me closer anyway
Like you’re addicted to the pain
Like every broken part of me
Still tastes holy on your tongue
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[Chorus]
And I hate how much I need you
How your voice cuts through the dark
How your touch can resurrect me
Then tear me back apart
You love me like a sickness
Like something fatal you can’t quit
And God, I swear I’d die for you
Just to feel your hands again
Cause when you lay against me
With your heartbeat over mine
I almost believe
I deserve to stay alive
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[Verse 2]
You catch me staring at the edge again
Mind somewhere cold and violent
Trying to disappear quietly
Before I become too much to fix
But you crawl into my arms
Like you belong inside the wreckage
Kissing every scar slowly
Until grief starts sounding romantic
And maybe that’s what scares me most
Not losing you
But being known
Cause you’ve seen the worst parts of my soul
And still sleep beside me
Like I’m worth holding onto
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[Pre-Chorus]
So if I self-destruct tonight
If the darkness finally decides
To drag me underneath
Promise you’ll remember me warm
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[Chorus]
I hate how much I need you
Like a blade needs open skin
Like heaven needs the hopeless
To let forgiveness in
And your love feels dangerous
The kind people write about after death
All obsession and trembling hands
And smoke inside the chest
But when your hand is over my heart
Feeling every violent beat
I swear for a moment
The emptiness retreats
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[Bridge]
We were never soft people
We loved too hard for that
Two damaged souls
Mistaking survival for romance
Still…
I’d let you ruin me forever
If it meant never losing your touch
Because dying slowly beside you
Still feels better
Than living without your love
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[Outro]
So hold me close tonight
Like you’re trying to keep me from fading
Trace the ink beneath my skin
Like proof I was here
And if I fall apart before the morning
If my mind finally caves in
Let your hand rest over my heart
Until it forgets how to ache.
QXA