Swallowed

Getting older...

It’s a trap.

Look in the mirror, trace the heavy line.

Wondering where I lost the grand design.

Used to be wild, used to be fast.

Now I’m just a shadow cast by the past.

The face looking back is a stranger to me.

A tired old ghost where a man used to be.

I wake up hurting, I go to bed sore.

Don't even know what I’m fighting for anymore.

Check the phone, but the screen is black.

The friends from the old days aren't coming back.

They drifted away, like smoke in the air.

Leaving me sitting alone in the chair.

I wanted to be grown up, I wanted the plan.

Now I’m just growing old as fast as I can.

The circle gets smaller as the years go by.

It’s harder to laugh and it’s easier to cry.

I walk through the house, I turn off the light.

Preparing for the battle of another long night.

I have the money, I have the space.

But I feel like a prisoner in my own place.

Success is a liar, it promised me peace.

But the noise in my head doesn't ever cease.

I climbed up the mountain to look at the view.

But there’s nothing up here except the cold and the blue.

(Music slows down—warped tape effect)

(Heavy breathing)

The silence is loud.

It screams in the room.

I’m living my life inside of a tomb.

No one to witness.

No one to care.

Just breathing in deep on the empty air.

Pour out a drink, let it burn in the throat.

Trying to keep this wreckage afloat.

The world keeps spinning, a relentless pace.

And I’m just disappearing without a trace.

The loneliness hits like a heavy stone.

Deep in the marrow, deep in the bone.

Maybe tomorrow the sun breaks through.

But tonight I’m just broken, with nothing to do.

(Beat slows to a dead stop)

(Echoing vocal)

Just broken.

Swallowed whole.

(Fade to silence)