To My Mom

As I sit here and watch my grand babies play..

I can't help but wonder..

wat..

my Mom would think..

I often find myself crying..

Over the things she never got to see..

All that she has missed..

For her I do grieve...

So many times..I needed help but no one was there..

It's been so hard without you..

for all these years..

I wonder if ur watching..

I wonder wat you'd say...

Are u proud of me now..

Or upset with the..

Choices I have made..

I wonder if ur watching...

Watching over me..

Watching over us..

Over the family..

Watching over me..

Guiding me through..

Wat I wouldn't give..

For another day or two..

I often find myself crying..

Over the things u never got to see..

All that you've missed...

For u I will always grieve..

Can you hear me Mom..

As I cry out ur name..

It's so hard sometimes..

How do I ease the pain..

I close my eyes..

I picture you there..

With ur beautiful smile.

And ur long brown hair..

I hope u can hear me Mom..

When I really need you..

The only peace I can find..

Is when I think that u do..

I'm sorry for falling so hard..

I was lost and alone..

in a world that only left scars..

When I talk to you..

I pray that you hear me..

I still need you..

I feel like ur near ... see..

I will always miss you..

I will always grieve..

I'll see you again some day..

That helps me..

find peace..

I believe ur out there somewhere..

Listening to me..

And all of my prayers..

In some way helping me..

Get rid of my demons and fight my fears..

So many times..I needed help but no one was there..

It's been hard without you for all these years..

I often find myself crying..

Over the things u never got to see..

All that you miss..

For you I will always grieve..

In my eyes,

you will always be..

The best Mother..

the world has seen..

I miss you everyday of my life..

I hope you and Dad are up in heaven..

Having a good time..

You and Dad...

Together for ever..

Waiting for all of us..

On the other side..

I'll be missing both of you.. I know..

I'll see u again someday...when it's my time..