Opening up for the first time in my life something I have never done cos I never had the chance to.i always had people talling me how to ruin my life from a child to a adult just cause I had lonning difficulties and other issues a family is supposed to be there for you. My family have always been dysfunctional and the people who I got brought up with who I classd as my family who I trusted but Thar stopped me in the back in a way where I cannot forgive them that make me out to be somebody I am not I do not know why my life is such an issue to other people when I'm no different to any other man who gets on with his life makes mistake has a journey falls in love has children. I'm not saying that I have never lied or made promises because I have for the one thing I've always done is tell the truth but when you get people who tell my fiance lies about me and twist things round to make things more worse than what they are and make me out to be somebody I am not from a child all the way to an adult my life has always been ups and downs drama and difficulties but I've managed to get on with things like human being but having people telling me who I am and what I am and what I should do with my life as now stopped as I am now more stronger my fiance and my children and step children made me all stronger and made me someone who now does not have people running all over me I now have a voice I've been my own family turn their back on me and treat me and my fiance the way they have is unforgivable from when I was at school growing up all I wanted is people to accept me for who I am and what I stand for Jess does that in every way she lets me being and she lets me bee the man I have always wanted to be and that is not to be judged and she does not do that she made me feel like I starring the sky shining bright and also supported me through my daughter's death but the one thing she has never done stopped me from doing what I want to do and say that's something I have never had you put all the bad things in my life to one side and look out for what I have now nobody is going to take that away from me I will be there for my family like my family have been now for me Jess could have gone with anybody as she is a beautiful and wonderful human being who does anything for anybody but she stuck with name and also caught up with the things in my life I was dealing with and that's very hard for a man to have and it's very hard for a man to open up about things that's always been hidden in my life like I said I'm not perfect but all I want to do is be happy and appreciate what I have and what I never want to let go life can take you only where you want it to go but you're the only one that can do that the other people ignore what other people think about you and say about you and enjoy the life that you have never tight things for granted take things as they come and grab them with both hands and that your heart and your mind accepted
