Beth lets start from the beginning about the truth, I know you've heard so many stories about me from people ,I understand you have your loyalty and they raised you the right way and made you the woman you are today and I praise them for that I really do your mum did the best job with you but I just wanna say even though I made mistakes I do admit them and try to be better everyday and own up to what I did wrong which haunts me and I never sit and say that it's all lies what people said as some of it is true but not all of it some of it isn't that correct because it's not coming from me and I think it needs to be as I'm the only one you need to hear it from. When you was a child we did have a strong bond and you was daddy's baby girl and my first born my number 1 so I'll never forget the memories of it being just us two daddy keeps that in his heart. Things changed very quickly back in them days your dad didn't realise what he had and how important you are and I always say. I did put things in front of you when I shouldn't have and I know I can't take it all back. I know you gave me a lot of chances as a little girl you should of never been put in that position but it happened and we can't turn back time. The truth is back in the past noone let me be a dad to you the way I wanted, everyone got involved when it should of just been me and you but people didn't stop coming between and I know they had your best interests but I shouldnt of been stopped being a dad. You was 16 when I last properly spoke to you and I've missed nearly 10 years of your life. Losing your sister made me realise I've lost you and I understand it's hard for me to get you back and I know I'll never get the chance with Leah but you need to understand I did try to see and speak to Leah but I couldn't but that's my truth the main thing I'm saying is I really don't want to lose you for good. Your brother's and sister I think need to see you as they are missing out on you too. I don't expect forgiveness but I would like the chance to get to know you again if you will let me. I know it will take time and it will be slow but life is short as we both know now. There's a lot of people who won't want you to be in my life but I hope you see past that and we can talk and I don't expect you to stop talking with anyone just to also give me a chance. I promise you everything will be on your terms. I'll wait until your ready but my inbox and door are always open. I'll never give up hope and give up on you I hope you know this. I think it's time to get to know me again and we talk one on one instead of hearsay and other people as we are father and daughter. This isn't a offense to anyone this is just a dad wanting to see his child again and be in her life and that's all I'm interested in. The past needs to be spoken about but I won't talk I'll listen to you. Dad loves you forever and you mean so much to me Beth. I hope you never forget that.
