My childhood was not the best I wos the second oldest off the boy and my older sister I want to a different school to tham as I had lonning difficulties and speech problems and stuttering I did not have alot wan I wos a child I never had brand new toys or brand new clothes they were all second and we had a social worker who did an awful lot for us and all those things we got from her my dad always drunk the money that you got for us so we didn't get anything that we should have so we had to do things ourselves to get a bit of money car washing paper rounds what was abused when I was a child I don't talk much about that as I felt disgusted in myself I was also beaton a lot on my dad because I had issues and was on strong enough to tell anyone or even cope with it as a child you're not going to know how to sometimes I would be in my bedroom scared to even come out of my room look at the window and watch all my friends playing wishing I was out there to why my dad was downstairs enjoying themselves playing music and drinking I so looked forward to going to school every day and didn't really want to come home my dad always used to call me thick and stupid that I was never going to have a girlfriend because he was ugly he always used to pick things that weren't even me just an excuse for him to take his anger out on me not having my mum around at the time didn't help the situation but I know she did what she did for the best because of my dad and what he was doing to her. My sister also went through something really bad when it comes to my dad something that would have changed her life and made a grow up more quicker than what she should have. Also the lost of my first niece at 4 months and also the lost my brother age 14 of cancer. My aim was to prove to myself and my father I wouldn't the things he said I was that's right and that's why I did the first thing I did was I went to college and did catering. I push myself to do the things everyone said I wouldn't be able to do that was always my aim previously and I achieved that my confidence in myself wasn't very good because I always fall I wasn't good enough to do the things that normal people did .my childhood was not gd but I would not be the man today I have the confidence in my self and my fiancé and my children never listen to people that have no idea who you are or how you're going to be always go by your own feelings and how you want to plan your life that's always important that is my message to anybody who go through the things in life that stops them from living their life go with your heart and not by somebody else's negativity all I want now is for my children took always think positive and always been they are capable of doing anything they set their minds to it and for them to look up on their mother and father on the things that they did good in life.just bee happy with things in that lifes always been a happy place.
