The East

It’s a silent night It’s the calm before the fight the nothing before the storm. the laughter just before you go to war . I have no direction. Truly wandering the stars will guide the way, but it’s too cloudy . I have no hand to hold so I’m lost in the maze, running naked in the cold forever waiting for the day It’s like I’m living in a Time Machine. I’m stuck in the past and everyone in front of me. How much can I take? Will this last to infinity? I’m very capable and dangerous. I got skills. I don’t use a lot. Bad shit I write it down. I get my pen and I jot lay it all out and I plot right at the point where there’s no turning back taking inventory at my life what I have what I lack and all of the weight I carry on my back that I put in my own pack will kill me break my back. I need to get help relax stop lying spit out facts. There’s people all around why is it only me I attack in a place where you don’t know what’s in store rather be in the place where it don’t hurt anymore anxiety and fear growing larger moving forward inside angels and demons in a game of tug O war, brain is so chaotic and has no direction, I scream but they can’t understand. I have no inflection. When did I sleep last? don’t know. might be losing it body can’t take it anymore. Shut down where I stand time to dream a bit wake up from my slumber back into my nightmare, but the sun’s up and I wonder just how much I can bare It pops into my head, the most obscure of references a Voice that says it’s meant to be this pain that restricts my will to live. It hurts you, but you take it, but don’t look too far ahead You won’t make it, look from a different angle, sometimes the demon is the angel What you need to find the way look to the east The sun comes up each day for that is where he rises the heart is big but hope is mighty and your heart It will get bigger. Take your finger off of the trigger. Won’t even ever need the bullets you hear this just before you pull it. To yourself do no more harm live by faith man read your arm you are twisted and you’re broken, drowning, constantly feel sunken, theres a voice only you hear it you were soulless, but now there’s this spirit fills the void replaces hate despair leaves you feel the strength Your eyes get wide survey terrain, the chaos from before remains lightning cashes drops of rain as you remain in this madness, rain streaming down your face, but the storm doesn’t bring you sadness washes you clean soaked in grace. You can’t explain the feeling, but you’re happy in this place you don’t know where you go from here but all of a sudden that’s OK when maps don’t help with all they say and stars are so very far away you don’t worry come what may You’re on a new path led by grace and it’s not easy maybe harder and you aren’t even any smarter but you fight without hesitation to your final destination, you don’t try to see it all the sun rises and it falls and the darkness brings the beast then the sun rises you look east….

Goody Life…

and it’s not easy maybe harder and you aren’t even any smarter but you fight without hesitation to your final destination, you don’t try to see it all the sun rises and it falls and the darkness brings the beast then the sun rises you look east….

Goody Life…not all sunshine’s and rainbows, it’s a tough life and you don’t always know why, but sometimes you hurt and because you can take it….never know what’s in store…have faith….show love…that’s the Greatness Baby!