I’m writing you this song sometimes it’s hard for me to talk. Don’t like to talk to my emotions more like that flower on the wall you can ask your mom I can blab and babble all day long, but rarely say anything she wants at all.
When I look, I’m amazed how perfect you’ve become despite my shortcomings as a teacher you continue to rise up. but also when I see you, I feel very overwhelmed. Think of all I’m supposed to teach you and you’re already 12. I always wanna be the hero make you smart strong tough, but looking in the mirror let’s be honest I haven’t been enough. in my life Nothing will ever be more important than you I make bad choices and find other stuff to do when truthfully all I have to do is be present And not in the other room. Little girl, I held you in my arms first when you came into the world I always want you to know that you will always be my world no matter what path or way you decide to go always trust your heart and you’ll be on the right road it may be 1000 miles and take you far away, but there will never be a second when you ain’t right there with me And there will never be a heartbeat when I’m not where you can see..When it comes to me, I know it’s not been a smooth ride at times I wasn’t always where I should be at your side the demons inside keep me from where I know I’m alive to be with you. Kick punch fight but when you’re at war with yourself, there’s no way to survive in your life. You’ll figure out some of you It comes from me. if it’s all you ever know of me it’s all that I can be stand on my shoulders Don’t look down. stay with mommy rise up while I love you more than anyone. I’m not the role model of a guy that you want to be in your life as you continue to succeed and reach for the stars. Don’t find a mate like me you want someone above par. Guys will come along who look good and have some swag but when you see me in them run know not what you want it’s a red flag turn around walk away and my greatest gift to you I can make, I love you, but you’re better learn from me I’m a mistake.
Olivia Anbinh Baby, Golden Peacock or daughter
Forever yours condolences I’m sorry,
John Johnny Goody Big Back Deeda, always With all the love your Father.