Laughing When I'm Nervous

heartbeat racing…

mouth twitching…

can’t stop it…

hah… hehe…

I walk in, eyes on me,

my brain’s spinning a hundred degrees.

Try to speak, words get stuck,

so I laugh, awkward, out of luck.

Everyone’s smiling, thinking it’s charm,

but inside I’m alarmed, can’t stay calm.

Hands fidget, knees bounce too,

and my laughter just breaks through.

I know it’s weird, I know it’s loud,

but it’s the only way to not feel bowed.

So I grin, so I snort,

mask the nerves in every retort.

Laughing when I’m nervous,

smile covers the storm.

Hiding all my chaos

in a shape that looks warm.

Tension in my chest,

but it comes out in sound —

nervous giggles echo

while I stand my ground.

They think I’m playful, maybe wild,

but inside I’m just a little riled.

Every “ha” is a tiny shield,

a little trick so I don’t yield.

Heartbeat glitching, words get fast,

my brain rewinds the awkward past.

Yet somehow, somehow it works,

they see a spark, not the quirks.

I can’t stop, I won’t hide,

this laughter’s my armor, my guide.

Through the sweat, through the glare,

I’m still standing, I’m still here.

Laughing when I’m nervous,

smile covers the storm.

Hiding all my chaos

in a shape that looks warm.

Tension in my chest,

but it comes out in sound —

nervous giggles echo

while I stand my ground.

hah… hehe…

glitch in my brain,

can’t explain…

laughing again…

mask on my face,

heartbeat a race…

still I survive

in my own space…

Laughing when I’m nervous,

smile covers the storm.

Even when I falter,

I’m still performing the form.

It’s awkward, it’s me,

it’s how I stay unbound —

nervous laughter echoes

while I own the ground.