Too Much, Too Soon

You text me good morning before I wake

Goodnight before I fall asleep

You say I’m everything you prayed for

I laugh it off, but something in me shakes

You hold my face like I might disappear

Say nobody’s ever loved you like this

You tell me your past like it’s fragile glass

I promise I won’t be another scar on your list

You move fast, say life’s too short

Say when you know, you know

You’re already talking about forever

And I’m still learning how you take your coffee

You make me feel chosen

Then scared to lose you

I don’t know when that started

You love me loud, you love me deep

You fill my phone, you steal my sleep

You say I’m safe inside your arms

But my chest feels tight, I don’t know why

You tell me I’m special, tell me I’m rare

Then get quiet when I need you there

It’s too much, too soon

But I let it happen

You say your ex was unstable

Say she couldn’t let things go

You say I’m nothing like her

But sometimes I see her in your tone

You ask where I am, who I’m with

Say you just worry, that’s all

But somehow I’m explaining myself

For things that never mattered before

You bring me gifts after we fight

Hold me close when I cry

Say I overthink everything

Then kiss my forehead like that fixes it

You say you hate control

But you don’t like when I change plans

You say you trust me

But you always need proof

You love me loud, you love me deep

You flood my world, you move in quick

You tell me I’m your whole life now

But I’m shrinking just to keep you calm

You build me up, then pull away

Say I’m dramatic when I’m afraid

It’s too much, too soon

But I still reach for you

You say nobody understands you like I do

Say I saved you

Say I’m the only thing keeping you steady

So I swallow questions

I silence instincts

I carry your moods like they’re mine

I tell myself this is passion

I tell myself this is love

But why do I feel lonely

Lying next to you

You love me loud, you love me hard

You say forever in my dark

You make me feel seen, then unseen

Like I’m something you can rearrange

You say I’m yours, say you’re mine

Say we’re healing each other inside

It’s too much, too soon

But I don’t leave

You’re holding my hand

Talking about our future

And I’m smiling

But somewhere inside me

A quiet voice is whispering

Slow down.