Still Awake

Verse 1

It’s late again and the house is quiet

Everyone’s sleeping except my mind

I keep staring at the same four walls

Trying to convince myself I’m fine

My body’s tired but I don’t feel rested

I close my eyes and I’m back there again

Your voice, your face, the things you said

Like none of it ever really ends

Pre-Chorus

I tell myself it’s over now

But my nervous system doesn’t listen

Chorus

I can’t sleep

And when I do

I relive everything you put me through

Every lie, every truth

Every moment plays on loop

I wake up with my heart in my throat

Trying to remember I’m safe at home

I can’t sleep

And when I do

It’s always you

Verse 2

I replay conversations that already happened

Rewrite endings that never came

I see the signs I ignored before

I say your name then swallow the pain

I don’t miss you, I miss who I thought you were

I miss believing I was okay

Now I lie here holding my breath

Counting hours until the day

Pre-Chorus

I tell myself I’m stronger now

But my body still remembers

Chorus

I can’t sleep

And when I do

I relive everything you put me through

Your manipulation, your control

Running circles in my soul

I wake up shaking, clenching my jaw

Trying to breathe through everything I saw

I can’t sleep

And when I do

It’s always you

Bridge

I lie here staring into the dark

Telling myself I survived

I don’t want revenge

I just want peace

I just want my life

I don’t miss you

I miss feeling safe

Chorus

I can’t sleep

But I’m still here

Still choosing to survive

You don’t own my rest

You don’t own my peace

You don’t get to live

Inside of me

I can’t sleep

But I’m healing too

Outro

One day I’ll close my eyes

And you won’t be there

( not forever… not forever…)