Felina

WALTER WHITE (solo)

Ed drove me north in a vacuum truck,

Buried me in New Hampshire like a live bug,

New name, new town, cancer growin’ back,

Watched my whole empire turn to smoke and ash.

I’d made my peace with how the story ends —

Then I saw that broadcast. Charlie Rose. Old friends.

Elliot and Gretchen, velvet chair, cold eyes:

“A mediocre man.” That’s the headline. That’s their prize.

No.

No, no, no —

I built an empire out of a diagnosis and a “no,”

Turned a chemistry set into a throne,

You don’t get to write the ending — the pen was never yours to own.

(the plan)

So here’s the last equation I design:

One rigged M60, wired precise, primed to align.

Cash for Gretchen — one condition, quiet, clean:

Get it to my son. Every year till he’s eighteen.

Todd — hollow, empty-eyed, wears my face like a badge,

Lydia — ice and stevia, dies from the tea, not a blade,

And Jack’s crew — wolves who took my partner, took my name,

I built the machine that made monsters — I’ll shut down the game.

(bridge — Jesse)

But somewhere in that clubhouse, chained up, starved down thin,

Is a kid I dragged to hell and never pulled back in.

I said I did it for me. God help me, that was true.

So the last thing I build with these hands — I build for you.

Not absolution.

Just a door left open. Just a chance to run. Just — out.

The only clean thing left in this whole account.

(final verse)

They’ll find me on that laboratory floor,

Hand on steel, not sorrow — reaching, one time more.

A chemist doesn’t die from cancer, doesn’t die from shame,

He dies still building, still becoming, still repeating his own name.

Say it — Heisenberg.

I didn’t do it for the money, didn’t do it for the fear,

I did it ’cause for once in my life I finally felt seen here.

Let them say I was a monster. Let them say I broke the rules.

Let them say I chose the ending — let them teach it in the schools.

Not out of reasons. Not out of fight.

Just out of road, on a New Hampshire winter night.

I built it.

It’s mine.

And I’ll be the one to watch it burn.

(Blackout.)