Ruined

You flinch when I get quiet

Like silence is a threat

You learned to read my breathing

Like a prayer before death

I like the way you watch me

Half terrified, half mine

Like you already know

I’ll undo you over time

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You say I make you hollow

But you never walk away

You wear my voice around your throat

Like a chain you chose to praise

And I can taste your weakness

Every time you say my name

Soft enough to sound devoted

Sharp enough to leave a stain

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Stay ruined for me

Stay desperate and sweet

I want your worst intentions

Lying naked at my feet

Let me crawl inside your head

Until there’s nothing left but us

I don’t want your healing

I just want your trust

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You stopped sleeping without music

Because the silence sounds like me

And every woman after this

Will feel temporary

I know exactly where to touch you

Not your body — your pride

The part of you that begs for love

Then dies when it arrives

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You call me cruel like it’s an insult

But your hands still shake for me

You confuse being destroyed

With intimacy

And maybe I could love you softly

Maybe I could let you breathe

But you look prettier addicted

Than you ever did at peace

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Stay ruined for me

Even when I disappear

Turn every empty room

Into proof that I was here

Let me live behind your eyes

Like a sickness you defend

You were never looking for love

You just wanted to be consumed again

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Nobody will ever know you…

the way I ruined you.