paths

You held the map, I lost the light

I followed every maybe, every sign

You set the tone, I set aside

I want to have asked for more than time

I learned to read you in the dark

Learned which truths you’d never start

You never said you’d stay or go

You let me love you in the “don’t know”

You held the map, I lost the light

Gave you my heart and called it mine

You pulled me close, just to go too far

I’m still yearning for who we almost are

You say you weren’t ready, I know that’s true

But I was ready every time it was you

I kept my hands where you felt safe

I made it easy to look away

I mistook your comfort for care

And let myself stay halfway there

You liked me quiet, liked me near

Liked that I asked for nothing clear

You say you didn’t mean to hurt me

But meaning isn’t mercy

You held the map, I lost the light

Let you decide how much of me survived

You pulled me close, then called it space

I’m still yearning for another fate

You weren’t ready, I understand

But you still took what you could hold in your hands

I don’t reach out, but I replay

Every version where you chose to stay

It’s not love, it’s not regret

It’s the echo of what we didn’t get

I’m not broken, I’m just bruised

From loving someone half-true

You held the map, I lost the light

I stayed gentle through the fight

You said “not ready” like a door

I’m still yearning at it, quiet, sore

If I’m honest, here’s my truth

I still want you, but I choose me too

Yearning for you, I think I’ll wait

I loved you fully, once, and late

Yearning for you