Getting choked out by my thoughts

Pacing back and forth while the whole world sleeps praying to God to ease my mind for the lost visit me at night I can't go to bed cuz the devil sits at the end of my bed I need help Lord please help can't do it anymore without your help.

Watching the love of my life wither away before my eyes she's literally withering away before my eyes cancer got a hold of her squeezing her tight I can't beat that mother f***** off even with a knife.

Jay I wish you were kid I wish you were alive you could help me your cancer up and make it fuckin Die!!.

But instead I pace while the whole world sleeps my mind is racing while I'm pacing the night