The feelings that I have for you feel so real.
I gotta change for me in order to keep you here.
I gotta change, I want to change and stop with the pills.
Another bar, fuck that I promise I will heal.
Ket and lean and bars are what got me here.
I’m opening up to people I’ve never met before.
Told them my stories that I’ve never told before.
I’m keeping this notebook for you to read and know more about horrible things I was know for.
Pills, Ket, lean and alcohol.
I had a seizure then overdose and you watched me fall, yeah you saw it all.
Questioning when did I consumed it all.
I don’t wanna do it anymore.
I know one more pill will make you go and I’ll end up back here fast like before.
I relapsed, yeah I know I did.
I collapsed and you thought I was dead.
I think perhaps it’s time to give it a rest.
Just stating facts on how I ain’t giving up yet.
All I think about is you and all the shitty things I’ve put you through.
You still forgive me like no one before.
You give my life meaning and inspire me to do more.
This is for You.
This is for You.
My brain tells me to take a pill and it’ll get better.
My heart tells me what about two hours later.
I’ll be crying in my sweatshirt begging for another.
What about tomorrow, perks got me in sorrows.
Past me is so hard to believe.
I need to keep the peace in my mind so I can be free.
I need the release so I can breathe and get some sleep then I wake up from the nightmares that haunt me every day of the week.
I’m staring at the moon thinking of you hoping you’re looking at it too.
I need to get through this in order to get to you.
Living eleven-eleven, taking it day by day.
Don’t care what anyone has to say ima do it my way.
I’m telling you, I’ll be honest.
I’m going to buy a house hopefully after all this.
I’ll do what I gotta do to keep my promises.
For You I’ll do anything even if we’re opposites.
For You.
For You.
For You.
(Medicine in You)
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