Don't know what to do with kindness

Verse 1
Not used to hearing my name like that,
Not used to someone meaning it.
I brushed it off, I played it down,
But it stayed with me a bit.

I’ve heard words that didn’t feel real,
Heard promises fall apart,
So when you said it like you meant it,
It hit a different part.

Pre-Chorus
Now I’m overthinking everything you say,
Waiting for it all to change.

Chorus
I don’t know what to do with kindness,
I don’t know how to let it stay,
I’m so used to something breaking,
Or slowly slipping away.

I don’t know how to believe it,
When it feels this new, this right,
I don’t know what to do with kindness,
When I’m used to having to fight.

Verse 2
You check on me like it’s nothing,
Like it’s normal, like it’s true,
But I’m looking for a reason
For what’s behind the things you do.

‘Cause I’ve seen how quickly things turn,
How fast people change their mind,
So I’m holding back a little,
Even when you’re being kind.

Pre-Chorus
Got my guard up even when I don’t need to,
Waiting for the shift to come.

Chorus
I don’t know what to do with kindness,
I don’t know how to let it stay,
I’m so used to something breaking,
Or slowly slipping away.

I don’t know how to believe it,
When it feels this new, this right,
I don’t know what to do with kindness,
When I’m used to having to fight.

Bridge
Maybe it’s me, maybe I expect too much,
Or maybe I expect it all to end.
Maybe I forgot what it feels like
To just let something in.

Outro
I don’t know what to do with kindness…
But I’m not pushing it away.
I don’t know what to do with kindness…
But I might let it stay.

female, alt rock/emo, electro pop/edm, synthwave, beats, powerful chorus hook voice, hurting vocals