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I am sitting here trying to shake these damn withdraws! Trying to find myself Mad at myself for all the pain I’ve caused I need to get sober! I need to admit myself! All those nights I kept doing drugs just to feel numb inside just to over come all the pain I felt and all the hurt that I caused! Trying not to feel anything or blame anyone but myself! I knew I needed help, but I kept getting high! I know I fucked up! I know I hurt all the people that love me! I know I need help and I know nobody can help me but myself! I wanna be free, I wanna be the best mom I can be! The sadness on my kids face when I promised them all the stuff I did and when I broke every single one that I made! I hurt my babies and I feel the pain of letting them down everyday! I’m sorry, I know I fucked up, I know I hurt you, I don’t blame you if you don’t forgive me but just know I love you! I lied to everyone and told them I wasn’t doing drugs but I obviously was! I can’t believe I got this low in life where all I did was lie to the ones I love so much! I kept all my hurt and pain inside and just tried to forget it all by getting high and it never got better but I just kept getting fucked up! All those night I would just sit in my room getting fucked up! I lost myself! I lost all the times I could’ve spent making memories with my kids! I woke up so many times with sweat dripping off of me like someone poured a bucket of water on me! I know god was looking out for me because I know I was supposed to OD those nights! But he said, it’s not your time! I should’ve stopped then but I didn’t and I just got up and did another line! I didn’t want to feel the pain! I know I fucked up I know I need help I want to be free I want to be drug free Somebody please help me I’ve smoked weed I’ve popped pills I’ve snorted coke I’ve smoked heroin and I’ve done meth! Lord, I was close to death But I have one more chance to make this life right!! I want to be free I want to be drug free Somebody please help me I want to be away from this misery
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2/19/2026