Borrowed Sunrise

The sky was just turnin’ gray
When the engine finally died
Empty bottle on the passenger seat
And a war still in my mind
I remember starin’ at the horizon
Like it owed me somethin’ true
Half ashamed I was still breathin’
Half relieved I made it through
I won’t lie and say I woke up thankful
Like the movies always show
Some mornings I still wonder
Why I couldn’t let it go
Every sunrise I see
Feels a little strange to me
Like a life I almost traded
For the silence I believed
There was a night I nearly vanished
Where the darkness almost won
But the world kept slowly turnin’
And the mornin’ brought the sun
So I’m learnin’ how to live
With the man I almost wasn’t
And the grace I didn’t notice
In this borrowed sunrise
Some days it still gets heavy
Like a weight I can’t outrun
But there’s little bits of mercy
That remind me I ain’t done
A laugh from someone I love
A calm wind off the sea
Little things I would’ve missed
If that night had taken me
So if you’re starin’ at that darkness
Thinkin’ no one hears your cry
Brother I’ve stood on that same edge
Watchin’ hope and doubt collide
And I can’t promise easy answers
Or a road without the rain
But sometimes just survivin’
Is the first step outta pain
Every sunrise I see
Still feels strange to me
But it’s proof the night can’t keep you
Even when it runs that deep
There was a night I nearly vanished
Where the shadows almost won
But the world kept slowly turnin’
And the mornin’ brought the sun
So I’m learnin’ how to live
With the man I almost wasn’t
And the grace I didn’t notice
In this borrowed sunrise
Yeah I’m learnin’ how to live
With the man I almost wasn’t
Every day beneath
This borrowed sunrise

male, country, emotional