Wonder

As he drifts off to sleep I wonder

if he dreams of me

As I do of him

I wonder if he feels the skip of a beat in his heart as I do when I see him

I wonder if he yearns for my touch and warmth as I do for him

I wonder if he loves me as much as I love him

Love that has no words that truly can define how you feel with them

Love that makes you overthink bc your scared of losing them

your mind wants you to think of the worldly things of everyone always leaving.

You.

You can’t fix him but you can be there for him

Give him what he needs

But he doesn’t except your help

Does he wonder how that felt

Where is the line of you giving to much of yourself to someone who won’t except it

Why does it almost hurt

It’s just love in a broken world

At the end of the day

May it just be two kids in love

But it almost feels like a fleeting dove

Flying away in the sun above

Love is not perfect but it is kind

And is very hard to find

But how much of myself do I give away

Before I eventually float away

Do I even know who I am,

in the first place

I never took the time to pace

And think

It never was a race

But that’s how it felt

Who am I

Never had time for my own thoughts

Always felt like a rock

In the bottom of a small pound

Nowhere to go

Already drowning

And nothing to think

Is it to late

Even when I never had the chance to start

So how can I lose this battle when it didn’t start

And be dead last

Have I lost….

Lost myself and ended up more broken then I was before

How is that possible

All I can do is

wonder