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Lyrics
[Verse 1]
Eyes open, but I’m so tired
Been fighting in my head, man, the war’s fire
Scrolling through the pain like it’s headlines
Smile in the pics, but I’m flatlined inside
Everybody say “pray, it’ll be alright”
I’ve been praying all night, I don’t see light
Heart heavy like a chain on my chest
Whisper to the sky, “Can You lay me to rest?”
[Chorus]
I just wanna go to the side of Jesus
Far from all the weight that never leaves us
Tears on my face while the world keeps speedin’
Tell me, Lord, why my heart still beatin’?
I just wanna go to the side of Jesus
Arms so wide for a broken believer
If You want me here, I’ll keep on breathin’
But some days I just wanna stop bein’
[Verse 2]
Yeah, they tell me “hold on, you got purpose”
But I’m looking in the mirror feelin’ worthless
Every scar, every loss, every closed door
Got me askin’ what I’m even still here for
See my Bible open on the nightstand
I’m asking, “Why You let me feel like this, Man?”
Then I feel a little calm in the chaos
Like He saying, “Child, I bled for your payoff”
[Bridge]
[low vocal register]
If I leave tonight, would You take me home?
Would You hold me close, say I’m not alone?
If I stay and fight, can You stay too?
‘Cause I can’t do this if it’s just me and my wounds
[soft choir “mmm”]
Lift my eyes when I’m sinkin’ slow
Meet me right here in the dark I know
If my breath’s a gift, help me live it right
Till You call me up in Your perfect time
[Chorus]
Details
GeneratedDec 30, 2025
Duration2:32
LanguageEnglish
Style
rap, Moody gospel-trap rap, male vocals; sparse piano and airy pads over a slow, knocking drum groove. Verses in an intimate, confessional tone with close-mic vocal, subtle choir stabs on key lines. Hook lifts with layered harmonies, tuned gospel ad-libs, and a wider stereo field. Final section strips to piano, bass, and soft choir for a reflective, hopeful outro.
Credits
Prompt by
ArlynerSyn01
ArlynerSyn01ModelAria v5
Prompt
the story about me wanting to die, not wanting to stay on earth and wanting to go to the side of Jesus Christ, rap
