Waiting for Nothing

I still wake up early

Still follow the routine

Same drive

Same schedule

Same quiet between

Nothing falling apart

Nothing getting better

Just another day

That looks like forever

I used to watch the door

Used to watch the signs

Now I just move through it

One day at a time

I’m waiting for nothing

Nothing to change

Nothing to fix

Nothing to save

I’m waiting for nothing

And that’s the truth

I stopped believing

Something new was coming to you

I don’t check the tone

Of the way you speak

I don’t measure distance

I don’t look that deep

Everything’s steady

Everything works

And I don’t expect

Anything more than this

There’s a kind of calm

That comes from letting go

Not peace

Just accepting what you know

I’m waiting for nothing

No better days

No sudden shift

No different ways

I’m waiting for nothing

Still standing here

Not hoping anymore

Not leaving either

It’s not anger

It’s not pain

It’s the quiet

After the strain

When you stop asking life

To feel different

And just live inside it

Everything moving

Nothing inside

I’m waiting for nothing

And it feels normal now

Same life

Same ground

I’m waiting for nothing

And maybe that’s true

Nothing is coming

And nothing is you

Sometimes the end

Isn’t the leaving

It’s when the waiting

Disappears