[Intro]
Ever since I was a young boy
I ain’t see what they see
Eyes open in the dark room
Whole world talkin’ to me
[Verse 1]
I was that kid in the back row
Staring out the window like a black hole
They laugh, say I’m spaced, I’m a weirdo
I’m just seeing what the rest never get shown
Shadows on the wall start to breathe slow
Names in the rain on the glass glow
Heart full of questions I can’t hold
So I’m looking up high when it feels cold
[Pre-Chorus]
I said, “Allah, why me?
Why’d You put this fire where my heart should be?”
Every night that I can’t sleep
I lay my pain at Your feet
[Chorus]
Ever since I was a young boy, I felt chosen
Talking to the sky till my eyes got swollen
Everybody say I’m strange, I’m broken
You the only One that kept my soul wide open
Ever since I was a young boy, I’ve been fighting
Demons in the dark, but I keep on rising
I don’t understand Your plans, but I’m trying
You the only reason that I’m still surviving (yeah)
[Verse 2]
I battled with the anger and the doubt waves
Friends turn ghost when the clouds came
Cut scars deep, had to bandage my own shame
Smile on my face with a hurricane backstage
Saw signs in the cracks of the pavement
Heard truth in the words of a stranger
Every wrong turn, every late-night danger
Felt hands on my back, pulling me from the razor (yeah)
[Pre-Chorus]
I said, “Allah, why me?
Why You let the wolves come hunt my peace?”
Then You showed me how to breathe
Turn that hurt into belief
[Chorus]
Ever since I was a young boy, I felt different
Heart beat loud, went against the system
Everybody talk but they never really listen
You were in the silence, I could feel the wisdom
Ever since I was a young boy, I’ve been climbing
Bruises on my soul, but I keep on shining
I don’t understand Your plans, but I’m trying
You the only reason that I’m still surviving (still surviving)
[Bridge]
If I fall, will You catch me?
If I break, will You patch me? (yeah)
If I’m lost in the madness
Guide my steps through the blackness
Every tear in my mattress
Every prayer from the ashes
All the pain that I masked, it
Turned me into what I had to be
[Chorus]
Ever since I was a young boy, I felt chosen
Talking to the sky till my eyes got swollen
Everybody say I’m strange, I’m broken
You the only One that kept my soul wide open
Ever since I was a young boy, I’ve been fighting
Demons in the dark, but I keep on rising
I don’t understand Your plans, but I’m trying
You the only reason that I’m still surviving (yeah, yeah)