Hurting

Every thing happens for a reason,
Yet God makes my life a lesson,
I know people in my life commit treason
People really like messing’
They come and go like the seasons
Make me missing, the fun times
Those moments felt like dimes a dozen
Now feels like those people laughing
At my struggles to making me starving,
At my love, that’s disguising my disgusting 
Behaviours— 

Yeh my hatred got me seething,
I’m in so much pain, they just kept stealing,
My patience away. Just hurting-
Nothing left to be dealing
Something i should be feeling
Ain’t there no more. 
Nothing left to explore
Mind’s a maze to be still standing,
Used to be a phase but now just bleeding,
Mind’s bending and my heart is kneeling,
Exceeding my levels of lost.. 

Yeh just hurting, used to be filled with flirting,
Whatever happened between us, 
Only now learning, that we’d never work out
Does that make you feel something or-
Am i the only one shouting,
Tell me to move on but i am doubting
How can i take one step when teaching-
How fucked i am without you, seeking-
Choices that were never mine to control
And that baby is why i lost all hope..

Yeh- cause i looked in the mirror, only
Now it’s filled with cracks where your reflection used to be,
Soul crushed under the weight of fate’s fee
Heard your cheating on that new girl, what-a-spree.. 
How can you be so fucked up? You ruined me
Only to ruin another girl’s heart and call it three
How many times must someone pay the price of you.. 
place a knife in me like it belonged there
Then did it to another girl like it’s fair
For you to go off again, just.. just hurting..
Any girl who puts on your hoodie,
Making them feel special, then you pass them
Off like a goodies, then blame them. 

Mother fucker is toxic, let him sink
Hurting but trying to think
This guy screwed me out of my life goals
Hatred burning hot enough to replace coals
Even at a discount his soul isn’t worth it
Even if i went to collect it, what would resolve?
Absolutely nothing. But a toxic waste of space. 
And mad at myself for lack of taste… 
Just gotta remind myself he has nothing in this space, yeah-
Just hurting. I- am.. just.. hurt…ing- yeah- Just Hurting.

Sad rap, Slow beat, Female