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Love Such a peculiar word A weird arrangement of letter A cage bound by the power it holds Disney movies will have you thinking it breath taking The Bible says love is kind Love is patient Love does not boast or envy It is not arrogant or rude Never really had that kind of love until 2021 The love I’ve always know prior was rough Scaled edges, piercing wounds , gaping wound left behind that I try tape closed Was it love when my first love drug me by my hair; beat me while pregnant Locked me in a closet for days, even had the army thinking I went awol Was it love when he’d beat me and buy me flowers with my money Was it love when at 5 my stepfather locked me in a basement til I was a good girl Was it love when the same man broke my soul with ever caress on my inner thigh Btw I was 6 Was it love when my own mother said she wished I died in her womb Was it her love when she called my father” pick her up or I’m putting her in foster care” Was it love when she never looked back the day she dropped me off at 6 Was it love when my own brother was shunned because his line was a little curved and not so straight Was it love when the army told me to come forward and face my rapist Only for him to say I wanted to be choked, with my face shoved in a pillow as he sodimized me Did the army love me when they let him walk ignore my photographed bruises Was it love when a friend drugged me an raped me as soon as I got to campbell This time I wouldn’t say anything because the army’s programs are bullshit Where the fuck was this godly love when I paid for a baby casket for the only daughter I’ll ever have Where was the love when my cousin’s friends took him to Miami and killed him Came home like nothing was wrong Where was this Godly love!!! This kind of love is gut wrenching It the deafening silence The cries of …not bitter …but mad as fuck black woman Who would come to my rescue Not prayer, not ppl It has always been better to be seen and not heard.. just as the pastors wife They wonder why I never really fit in Those scars run deep Deeper than any bandaid can pacify They wonder why alcohol was my friend Why I’d rather feel nothing Be nothing See nothing Know nothing Remember Alcohol was the friend who calmed my anxiety Cupped in a glass I was fearless Relaxed from thought of suicide A down .. who said that !!! It removed all pain, anx, hurt even for a moment Temporary release is better than no release at all Until I quit my confidant alcohol was her name Now I feel it all Experience it all See it all Every look in the mirror In my sobiriety reverence of clarity came Overflowing my cup forcing me to drink the truth The hard bill I was now choking on I don’t think alcohol was ever my friend She didn’t tell me that the calmness was the vortex of chained anger She didn’t tell me the numbness was a ticking time bomb and soon I’d explode She didn’t tell me she too had caged me like a little black bird A black bird that had to evict her from life to truly live
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Rnb
3:30
No
2/27/2026