Louder Than Me

(Voices): nobody likes you… you’re fakin’ it… just stop…

(Me – tense): shut up… just—stop…

(Me)

I been tryin’ to smile, say I’m finally okay

Told myself “new day, I’ll be better today”

(Voices)

you’re lyin’ again… you ain’t changin’, no way

(Me)

I’m laughin’ out loud but it’s startin’ to fade

Every step forward feel like it don’t stay

(Voices)

they don’t even like you… they just act that way

(Me – getting louder)

Why you always in my head when I’m doin’ alright?!

(Voices)

‘cause you know we right… you just scared of the night

(Me)

I said STOP, I’m done listenin’ to lies

(Me)

I’m broken but I don’t wanna fall apart

Tryna build myself up, yeah, a brand new start

(Voices)

you’ll never be enough… you ain’t got the heart

(Me – yelling)

SHUT UP! You don’t get to tear me apart!

If I can’t keep up with this damn heart

I’ll still fight every beat, I’ll still play my part

(Voices)

just give in… just quit… it’s too hard—

(Me – firm)

Nah… I’m still here, I’ve come this far

(Voices)

remember every time you felt alone?

every text ignored… every empty phone?

(Me – shaken)

Yeah I remember, yeah it still hits deep

But I ain’t that same person I used to be

(Voices)

you’ll always be that… you can’t escape

(Me)

Maybe I bend… yeah maybe I break

But I’m still standin’, what more can I take?

(Voices – overwhelming)

end it… fade out… nobody cares…

(Me – breath shaking, then rising)

NO.

You don’t get to decide if I’m still here.

Yeah I hurt… yeah I got these scars

But pain ain’t the end, it’s just where I start

Even on days when it’s way too hard

I’m still breathin’… I’m still fightin’… that’s who I are

(Me)

I’m broken but I don’t wanna fall apart

Tryna build myself up from a shattered heart

(Voices – fading)

you can’t—

(Me – overpowering)

WATCH ME.

If I can’t keep up with this damn heart

I’ll still push through the dark, I’ll restart

Yeah it hurts, yeah it leaves its scars

But I’m still here… and that means I’m strong

(Voices – distant)

…you’ll fall…

(Me – calm)

Maybe.

…but I’ll get back up.

Every time.