Different Meanings

When I said “I love you”…

I meant every second after that too.

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I held your name like a hole in my chest,

Every “I love you” felt real when you said it,

Late night talks, you asleep on my arm,

Swore your voice was the only thing keepin’ me calm.

I gave you my worst and you still used to stay,

So I thought that forever was hidin’ your face,

Now your side of the bed just cold to the touch,

Funny how forever can fade into dust.

And I still hear your laugh when the room gets quiet,

Still look for your car when I’m drivin’ in silence,

You moved on like the pain never happened at all,

While I replay every word every time that I fall.

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But my “I love you” meant “please don’t leave tonight,”

Yours meant forever, mine just meant “right now’s alright,”

You gave me your soul, I gave you pieces at best,

Now your voice shakes apart every beat in my chest.

My “I love you” was warm for the moment we had,

Yours was a future, mine faded too fast,

And I know that it hurts when you hear my name,

‘Cause your love meant forever…

Mine never stayed.

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Now it’s 2AM drivin’ with tears in my eyes,

Street lights blur while I’m losin’ my mind,

Every song on the radio sounds like you,

Every damn memory cuts right through.

I don’t think you lied, I think we meant different things,

You wore love light while I wore it like rings,

I was ready for forever, ready for pain,

You were just tryna feel less alone for a day.

And that’s what destroys me deep in the end,

I lost my lover and my closest friend,

Now I talk to the dark when the room gets cold,

Tryna hold onto someone already gone.

My “I love you” was fear of bein’ alone,

Yours was a fire tryna build us a home,

You gave me your heart with your hands open wide,

While mine kept one foot already outside.

And I still think of you late at night sometimes,

Hear your name echo soft in my mind,

You loved me completely, I just loved the feelin’,

Now you’re left with wounds that are never healin’.

Your “I love you” carried weight like a vow,

Mine disappeared when life got too loud,

And I wish I could take back the pain that I made…

But your love meant forever,

Mine faded away.

Now your pictures still glow from the cracks in my phone,

I should delete them but I hate bein’ alone,

You’re somewhere happy while I barely sleep,

Still drownin’ in promises you couldn’t keep.

And maybe I’m stupid for holdin’ on still,

For thinkin’ real love could survive how this feels,

‘Cause I said “I love you” like breath in my lungs,

But you said it soft like a half-finished song.

Now I sit in my car while the rain hits the glass,

Watchin’ our memories fade with the past,

And every “forever” you whispered to me

Sounds more like goodbye the older I get.

I said “forever” scared to be alone…

You meant every word, I just needed a home.