Half a Ghost

I learned real young how to stay quiet

How to bleed without leaving a mark

I watched love turn into a weapon

Watched hope get buried in the dark

I learned how to sleep with my eyes open

How to smile when something’s wrong

Prayed to a ceiling every night

That never talked back at all

I wasn’t saved

I survived

Yeah… there’s a difference they don’t like

I’ll either find a way

Or I’ll make one

Even if it costs what’s left of me

If the road wants a body

I’ll take one

I’m already half a ghost, you see

Yeah, I’ll either find a way

Or I’ll make one

I’m already half a ghost, you see

I carry a voice that sounds like a sentence

Saying, “you don’t belong, you never did”

Every mirror feels like a crime scene

Where I bury who I could’ve been

I’ve tasted the edge of the ending

I’ve stared straight into the black

But something ugly keeps breathing

Refusing not to come back

I don’t believe in destiny

I believe in teeth and will

I believe in dragging myself

Where nothing else will

I’ll either find a way

Or I’ll make one

Even if it costs what’s left of me

If the road wants a body

I’ll take one

I’m already half a ghost, you see

Yeah, I’ll either find a way

Or I’ll make one

I’m already half a ghost, you see

There ain’t no light waiting at the end of this

It’s just me

Still standing

Still unfinished

I didn’t crawl

I built a room in the dark

And learned how to stand tall

I’ll either find a way

Or I’ll make one

Even if it tears the rest of me

If the road wants a body

I’ll take one

I’m already half a ghost, you see

Yeah, I’ll either find a way

Or I’ll make one

I’m already half a ghost, you see

Even torn apart…

I’m still here

Half a ghost

Still breathing