Verse 1
I’m just surviving
Tryna prove that I belong
Like I gotta earn the air
Every time I breathe it in my lungs
I’m stuck somewhere in the middle
Where nothing starts or ends
Life just keeps on moving
Like it never planned on lettin’ me in
(mmh…)
Pre-Chorus
I feel borrowed… I feel thin
Like this skin don’t quite fit
I don’t dream about tomorrow
I just stare at where I’m standing
Chorus
I’m not asleep, I’m not awake
Just barely holding all my pieces in place
I ain’t dead, but I don’t feel alive
I learned how to stay, not how to survive
I’m still here, and it’s all so loud
Still breathing, but I’m fading out
Yeah, I’m here… still here
But against my will
Verse 2
I don’t break down, I just unravel
Slow like I don’t even fight
I walk through rooms like I’m invisible
Seen enough, but never right
I say I’m good, I keep it moving
But something’s slipping through
I’m standing in the mirror
Lookin’ like somebody I don’t know
(oh Lord…)
Pre-Chorus 2
Time keeps asking more of me
I keep falling behind
I feel borrowed… I feel thin
Like I’m losing every time
Chorus
I’m not asleep, I’m not awake
Just barely holding all my pieces in place
I ain’t dead, but I don’t feel alive
I learned how to stay, not how to survive
I’m still here, and it’s all so loud
Still breathing, but I’m fading out
Yeah, I’m here… still here
But against my will
Bridge (Strip it down – raw confession)
I’m tired of hearing “it gets better”
When it don’t feel that way
Tired of being strong for everybody
When I’m breaking every day
I didn’t choose this weather
But I’ve been standing in the rain
I don’t need a brand-new life
I just wanna feel okay
(voice cracks)
[Final Chorus Big, desperate release]
I’m not asleep, I’m not awake
Just stitched together by my mistakes
I ain’t dead, but I don’t feel alive
I learned how to stay, not how to survive
I’m still here, and it’s all so loud
Still breathing, but I’m fading out
Yeah, I’m here… I’m still here
But against my will
(ooooh… yeah…)
[last “will” almost spoken, breath falling out]
Tonenico
