All I wish for this Christmas

It's that time of year,
It's supposed to be so full of happiness and cheer.
Such magical times,
And joyous smiles.
The season of giving,
Finding reasons for living.
Only not for me..
Oh not for me..

Because all I wish for this Christmas ,
Can't fit under the tree,
I wish for my mind to be free.
Free to be me.
Not a person with too big of a heart,
But never feeling a meaningful part.
I want someone who notices
A shift in my mood,
Without an immediate attitude.
Someone who listens to understand me better,
Who helps gives my mind a shelter.
Someone who helps calms my storms, 
Instead of wondering how much more I can be torn.
All I wish for this Christmas is to be ok with just being me.

Everyone rushing around,
But me always feeling alone in a crowd.
Doing everything to see a smile on everyone's face,
Longing for only that one special embrace.
Giving away every last piece of myself,
Always putting myself on the shelf.
I know I can be the only one,
Feeling this conflicted and torn.



Because all I wish for this Christmas ,
Can't fit under the tree,
I wish for my mind to be free.
Free to be me.
Not a person with too big of a heart,
But never feeling a meaningful part.
I want someone who notices
A shift in my mood,
Without an immediate attitude.
Someone who listens to understand me better,
Who helps gives my mind a shelter.
Someone who helps calms my storms, 
Instead of wondering how much more I can be torn.
All I wish for this Christmas is to be ok with just being me.

Is it ok to be just be me?

Christmas, gloomy, rock female