Intro)
Yeah…
Seventeen candles but the flame feel old
Like I skipped all the chapters, went straight to cold
Ain’t nobody told me life would hit this hard
Now I’m young on paper, but I’m scarred like scars got scars
(Verse 1)
my chest feel heavy like debt,
Like I lived three lives I ain’t even finished yet
Got a smile on my face, but it’s taped on tight
Like if it slip one second, I’ma break on sight
Every night it’s quiet but my mind don’t rest
Got thoughts running laps like they fighting my chest
I be staring at the ceiling like it’s staring back
Counting every little thing that I think I lack
Friends laughing in the hall, I just fake that vibe
Like I’m part of something real, but I’m just nearby
And it’s crazy, I remember being ten years old
Thinking life was just cartoons and some dreams to hold
Now I’m stuck in my head, and it’s loud in here
Like I aged too fast, skipped the child in here
(Pre-Chorus)
I don’t know when it changed, when it got this gray
When the light in my chest slowly walked away
Now I’m asking questions I can’t outrun
Like how you feel so tired when you barely begun?
(Chorus)
I’m seventeen, feeling thirty, like my soul worn out
Like I been through storms I can’t talk about
Got this weight on my chest, I can’t set it down
Smile for the world, but I’m about to drown
I don’t know if I’m lost or just too aware
Of the pain in the world and the way it’s unfair
I ain’t saying I’m gone, but I’m not okay
Just existing every night, trying to see next day
(Verse 2)
Teachers talking ‘bout the future like it’s crystal clear
But I’m stuck in the present fighting silent fear
‘Cause I’m still tryna figure how to just be alive
And my friends got plans, got dreams, got goals
I got questions in my head and a heart full of holes
They be posting all smiles, I scroll and compare
Like why it look easy for them out there?
I don’t hate ‘em, nah, I just don’t relate
It’s like I’m out of sync with the world’s pace
Like I’m walking through mud while they running free
And they don’t see the chains that I carry with me
Some nights I sit quiet, just me and my thoughts
And they louder than screams that I never fought
I be arguing with myself like “just be strong”
But strength feel fake when it’s been too long
(Bridge)
And I don’t even know how to ask for help
How you say you’re not okay without hating yourself?
How you tell someone “yo, I’m not alright”
When you been acting fine your whole damn life?
So I laugh a little louder, joke a little more
Play the role they expect like I did before
But the second I’m alone and the door clicks shut
All that bottled-up pain just erupts
(Chorus)
I’m seventeen, feeling thirty, like my soul worn out
Like I been through storms I can’t talk about
Got this weight on my chest, I can’t set it down
Smile for the world, but I’m about to drown
