I remember

I remember the days I grew up with no worries now I’m in the present regretting my memories. I remember the days we use to spent them dreaming, now I’m just wishing to disappear. Things are haven’t been the same, still tryna find my path to victory. But it seems like it’s taking eternity. Got all this trauma building I don’t know where to gooooo. Tried opening up to my mom about my depression and my worries, her only answer was therapy. Seems like no one wants hear about your shit unless your offering some money.

Lost my best friend, swear it still feel like yesterday

Got his number in my phone, don’t got the nerve to press the name

Everybody say “time heals,” but that shit a lie

‘Cause some wounds stay open every time I close my eyes

We was talking ‘bout the future, yeah we had it all planned

Now I’m pouring out my pain with a mic in my hand

Anger in my chest, yeah it sit where my heart is

Smile on my face but my soul feel exhausted

They don’t see the nights I’m fighting with my head

They don’t hear the words I never said

I remember the days I grew up with no worries

Now I’m in the present regretting my memories

I remember the days we used to spend them dreaming

Now I’m just wishing I’d disappear

Things ain’t been the same, still tryna find my victory

Feels like I’ve been stuck here for an eternity

Got all this trauma building, I don’t know where to goooo

Feels like I’m screaming loud but nobody knows

I tried opening up to my mom ‘bout the pain in me

All I heard was “therapy,” like that shit explainin’ me

Grew up in a house full of yelling and rage

Now you asking why I’m angry, why I’m stuck in this phase

You say I should heal but you made me this way

Learned to bottle every feeling, put a smile on my face

I don’t hate you, but I hate what it did

Now I’m fighting demons you don’t even know exist

Three years ago I crashed, almost lost my life

Now every time it rains I’m gripping tight on the wheel at night

Heart racing, flashbacks playing in my brain

Headlights look like memories sliding in the rain

They say I’m still here so I should feel blessed

But surviving don’t mean that you ain’t still stressed

I drive forward but my past in the rear

Every storm outside make the fear reappear

Bridge (soft, melodic):

If I disappear would they finally listen?

Or do they only care when you gone and missing?

I been holding on but my grip getting weak

Still breathing, still standing, but I’m tired of being strong every week I remember the days I grew up with no worries

Now I’m in the present regretting my memories

I remember the days we used to spend them dreaming

Now I’m just wishing I’d disappear

Things ain’t been the same, still tryna find my victory

Feels like I’ve been stuck here for an eternity

Got all this trauma building, I don’t know where to goooo

Feels like I’m screaming loud… but nobody knows…I remember the days it used to be so damn good now I’m wishing we could back to how things used to be to be but don’t know how to make there so I’m hoping someone can save me from this hell