Undecided

I'm undecided…undecided,

Undecided, my heart I want to love

But my heart could be misguided

I rather listen to the voice up above

For I've been here before,

Left, discarded in the rain,

I can not expect you to accept me like this

To understand my pain,

He went and loved another

Left me here in despair

I vowed to protect my bleeding heart

You came along, now I wish...

I wish…

I wish, I could grasp your love

But it only slips away…

I don't know if I should reach forward or stay,

Your words bear weight, heavy on my brain,

I want to love you but my heart is delayed

And still I remain…

Undecided.

I’m undecided…undecided,

Yet, I feel you closer,

Every gentle word tests my restraint,

I measure every breath between

What I want and what feels safe,

Your patience pulls against my fear,

Like a tide I can’t outrun,

I’m standing on the edge of truth,

Afraid of what I’d become if I jump,

He went and loved another

Left me here in despair

I vowed to protect my bleeding heart

You came along, now I wish...

I wish…

I wish, I could grasp your love

But it only slips away…

I don't know if I should reach forward or stay,

Your words bear weight, heavy on my brain,

I want to love you but my heart is delayed

And still I remain…

Undecided.

If I’m quiet, it’s not indifference,

It’s every scar learning to heal,

I’m not afraid of loving you,

I’m afraid of what loving costs me,

I trace the line between then and now,

Try to believe this isn’t the same,

If I let myself fall into your arms…

Will I lose myself again?

He went and loved another

Left me here in despair

I vowed to protect my bleeding heart

You came along, now I wish...

I wish…

I wish, I could grasp your love

But it only slips away…

I don't know if I should reach forward or stay,

Your words bear weight, heavy on my brain,

I want to love you but my heart is delayed

And still I remain…

Undecided.

Undecided….undecided

I'm still…undecided.