Hopeless

(Verse 1)
I learned to smile when I was breaking
To say I’m fine when I was not
I learned to stay when they were leaving
To blame myself for what I lost

I counted scars like they were reasons
To hide my voice, to lower my head
I thought that love was always leaving
So I made friends with being sad

(Pre-Chorus)
I got tired of saying sorry
For every breath, for every dream
I got tired of feeling guilty
For being who I’m trying to be

(Chorus – più veloce, più luminoso)
I don’t wanna be the problem of my life
I don’t wanna be the reason I can’t rise
If I’ve been lost, then I can learn the way
I don’t wanna hate myself another day

I don’t wanna be the shadow in my light
I don’t wanna run from who I am inside
Maybe I’m broken, but I’m still alive
I don’t wanna be the problem of my life

(Verse 2)
I walked alone through all the questions
Asking God what I did wrong
I tried to change into their version
Just to feel like I belong

I held my tears like they were secrets
I called my fear my only friend
But every night I felt this whisper
Saying “this is not the end”

(Pre-Chorus 2)
I’m done with asking for permission
To finally exist
I’m done with living in the distance
From the girl I always missed

(Chorus – più aperto, più forte)
I don’t wanna be the problem of my life
I don’t wanna be the reason I can’t rise
If I’ve been lost, then I can learn the way
I don’t wanna hate myself another day

I don’t wanna be the shadow in my light
I don’t wanna run from who I am inside
Maybe I’m broken, but I’m still alive
I don’t wanna be the problem of my life

(Bridge – momento più intimo)
Maybe loving me is something I must learn
Maybe all this pain is something I can burn
I don’t need to be perfect to be strong
I just need to know that I belong

(Final Chorus – luminoso, liberatorio)
I don’t wanna be the problem of my life
I wanna be the reason I survive
If I’m still here, then I can start again
I don’t have to lose myself to win

I don’t wanna be afraid of every fight
I don’t wanna live like I’m a crime
Maybe I’m scared, but I’ll be fine
I don’t wanna be the problem of my life

(Outro – quasi sussurrato)
I’m not hopeless anymore
I’m just learning how to stay

Indie Pop emotivo / Alternative Pop/Indie Pop/Soft Alternative/88–92 BPM/piano soft o synth pad, female