Abyss

Falling straight into the abyss.

Can’t think straight, I’m feeling helpless.

Try to relate but I’m too complex.

Based on fate, now that’s a hard flex.

Stuck between a rock and a hard place.

If I’m not high then I can’t concentrate.

I can’t rely on myself cuz I’m always wasted.

I need better health if I’m gonna make it.

I feel the devils eyes, now I’m a target.

I fall from the sky, it’s hard to forget.

Unless I take too many bars then I won’t remember it.

I blacked out because I was way to fucking faded.

It became to regular of a thing of blacking out and overdosing.

This vivid motion is now a crippling emotion.

Passed out from all the potions, maybe one day I’ll forget them.

Can’t be sad all the time or I’ll get nothing done.

Hard to not be sad when it feels like I’m on the run.

Taking drugs but now all I feel is a buzz.

Smoking to the face and drinking till I’m numb.

Popping pills all over the place just for the fun.

I fall asleep but wake up to demons in my room.

Up, down, left, right, A B Y, cheat codes.

I feel up and down, left and right without those.

Brain wondering all around while I write in my notes.

I fall straight to the ground far from where I rose.

It’s clear to see all the drugs that I do and they can clearly see but why I do them is still a mystery.

Watching others bleed right out to the sea.

Blood of the innocent spilling on the concrete.

Tears from the early days, that shit don’t come lightly.

Crying in your pillow case, depressions never easy.

Starring at the devil face, I’m a lost fucking entity.

I’m falling straight into the abyss.

I can’t think straight, I’m feeling helpless.

I try to relate but I’m too complex.

It’s based on fate, now that’s a hard fucking flex.

So pissed off but I can’t help it.

That’s why I’m so fucked up and always faded.

Can never relax unless I pop a few pills.

Smoke a couple packs to keep me standing still.

I’m shaking and it’s starting to feel a little more real.

I fall so hard that it’ll seal the deal.

I’m fading away.

Suffering all day.

In my head there is no space.

I’m all alone with no peace.