When have I ever not gotten what I wanted?
When have I ever not gotten what I needed?
Especially when I tried
Especially when I stayed consistent
Funny how I forget that
Funny how I start doubting myself
Like I ain’t watched miracles happen
Over and over again
I used to not care if they liked me
Now I want love all around me
Not the kind I gotta beg for
Not the kind I gotta chase
Just genuine people
Good hearts
Good energy
Good taste
And I’ll be kind
But I won’t abandon myself to keep somebody
No
I won’t shrink my boundaries
Just because somebody wants access
I spent too much time learning them
I wanna be the woman
People speak highly of
Cause I speak highly of others
Integrity over gossip
Truth over slander
Even when nobody watching
When have I ever not gotten what I wanted?
When have I ever not gotten what I needed?
Especially when I tried
Especially when I stayed consistent
Maybe that’s what this year is
Consistency
Not talent
Not potential
Consistency
Read the book
Write the pages
Say the prayer
Keep the promise
Show up when nobody clapping
I wanna try new things
Show off my gifts
Learn new hobbies
Live this life like I actually believe
I only get one
I wanna leave Colorado
I wanna build a home
I wanna foster children
Show them things I never saw
Show them safety
Show them love
Show them what happens
When somebody doesn’t give up on you
Maybe that’s why I can’t give up on me
When have I ever not gotten what I wanted?
When have I ever not gotten what I needed?
Especially when I tried
Especially when I stayed consistent
I was born with too much fight in me
Too much vision
Too much faith
To live a small life
And maybe beauty fades for some people
But mine gets richer
Cause every year I become more myself
Every year I become more disciplined
Every year I become more grateful
Every year I become more free
So if I’m manifesting anything
Let it be courage
Let it be discipline
Let it be wisdom
Cause everything else always seems to find me
When have I ever not gotten what I wanted?
When have I ever not gotten what I needed?
Especially when I tried
Especially when I stayed consistent
Funny how I forget that
Funny how I ever doubt it
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