Am I My Own Self-Destruction

[Verse]
Hollow eyes staring back through the mirror
Broken pieces, every crack makes it clearer
Trying to fit the mold, their dreams I’m wearing
But this weight on my chest, it's too much for bearing
[Chorus]
Am I my own self-destruction, tearing at my seams?
Living through their voices, caught up in their dreams
Perfect’s just a mirage, I drown in every spell
Hard to love another when I can’t love myself
[Verse 2]
Echoes in my head, their words cut deep
Pillows hold the truths I whisper in my sleep
Chasing shadows, the person they want to find
But this version of me, she's locked outside my mind
[Bridge]
Their expectations, a noose 'round my soul
Living in a circus, playing every role
Climbing ladders of approval, slipping every rung
The melody’s mournful, unsung songs left unsung
[Chorus]
Am I my own self-destruction, tearing at my seams?
Living through their voices, caught up in their dreams
Perfect’s just a mirage, I drown in every spell
Hard to love another when I can’t love myself
[Verse 3]
Tears hit the page where I sketch my shame
An artist lost in the chaos, forgetting her name
I draw fragile wings, begging to ascend
But gravity pulls hard, my war never ends

sad, ballad, melancholic, emo, female vocals, rap, trap ballad, emotional