Four years mending

Verse 1]

I remember the night when I said goodbye

Not to the world, but the will to try

I was twenty-one, so lost, so low

Tired of breathing, just wanted to let go

Years of silence, years of pain

Hands that hurt me, voices full of blame

I was used, I was bruised, I was left behind

By people who should’ve protected mine

Three in my family, they took what they could

Body and mind — and I was never understood

And my mother turned away like it wasn’t true

Letting it happen, like I wasn’t worth rescue

Severe neglect, no safe place to cry

Just cold rooms and a will to die

I learned to shrink, to disappear

And hate myself more every year

I survived the fire, I walked through the storm

Even when my heart felt tired and torn

No bloodline left to carry my name

But love found me and healed the shame

My husband holds what the world let fall

And my friends, they showed me I can stand tall

I’m still here — still breathing, still true

And I’m proud of the girl who made it through

There’s still days the memories bite

But I no longer let them steal my light

I’ve got laughter now, I’ve got peace

And arms that love without a leash

They aren’t my family by name or blood

But they showed me what real love does

I’m not what I was, but I’m still me

And somehow… that’s finally free

It breaks my heart to think back then

I hated myself more than I let in

Believed I was broken, dirty, and wrong

That ending it all would be the only song

But now I look back, and I wish I knew

That love was coming… that healing was too

I’m still grieving the girl who felt that small

But I love her now — scars and all

I survived the fire, I rose from the fall

Even when I felt like nothing at all

No mother’s hand, no father’s grace

But I found heaven in a different place

In vows whispered and friendships grown

In the way they remind me I’m not alone

I’m still here — still breathing, still true

And I love the girl who made it through

To the one who almost gave it away

This life you live now begged you to stay

And look what you found in the years between

A love that holds you, soft and clean

I’m still here — still healing, still true

And I thank God for the girl…

Who made it through.