I choose God (v2)

I remember the laughter, the rides in the car,

The stories you told, the man that you are.

I’ve loved you deeper than words can explain,

But loving you’s been wrapped in pain.

I cook, I clean, I hold the line,

While you throw fits and call it fine.

You say you’re strong, then fall apart,

And leave me trapped with a heavy heart.

I’m not your enemy, I’m your son,

But you fight me like I’m the wrong one.

I gave you time, I gave you grace,

But I’m losing me in this same place.

But I choose God, I choose peace,

I choose to let these shackles cease.

I choose the road I’m called to take,

Even if your heart will break.

I can’t serve two, I can’t stand still,

When God has called me to His will.

I love you, Dad, but I’ve had enough—

I choose God, and I choose love.

You treat me like a child, though I’m grown,

You keep me chained inside this home.

You play the victim, pull me near,

With sickness, guilt, and silent fear.

But I see now, with clearer eyes,

The devil’s tricks in your disguise.

You won’t release, you won’t let go,

But I’ve got seeds I need to sow.

No wonder why Mom walked away,

She couldn’t take the price to stay.

And now I feel that same old tug—

Not to escape, but rise above.

If loving you means losing me,

Then I must leave to be set free.

I was made for more than this—

And my calling I won’t miss.

So I choose God, I choose grace,

I choose to run my holy race.

Even if it breaks your pride,

I won’t keep hiding what’s inside.

I choose the truth, I choose the flame,

Even if you curse my name.

I’ll always care, but I won’t stay—

I choose God, and walk His way.

I hope one day you’ll understand,

This isn’t hate—it’s Heaven’s hand.

I’m not your keeper, I’m His son,

And now my journey has begun.

You made me choose, so now I stand,

Not as your boy—but as a man.

With trembling heart, through fire and flood…

I choose freedom,

I choose light,

I choose God.