Chances

So many nights I lay awake

staring into my memories slowly I break

Fading smiles and scenic changes

Every day seems our minds erased it

The love we had for one another

Broken and torn over and over

With one last breathe I take

A single moment to just say

You were all I dreamt for

A beautiful soul lost in the cold world

An essence so kind and pure

No your just a memory I'll hold for sure

Because life is changing so fast

I thought our time together would last

Hoping and praying you come back

Now I know there's no chance of that.

I tore myself apart all because of you

I lost so many hours crying over you

Now when the pain silences I feel sane

Here they fucking come all the painful memories.

Trying to kill them one by one

I'm bringing out the big guns

Licensed therapist take your aim

Destroy all my childhood trauma I hid.

With my last breath I'll say.......fuck!

You were all I dreamt for

A beautiful soul lost in the cold world

An essence so kind and pure

No your just a memory I'll hold for sure

Because life is changing so fast

I thought our time together would last

Hoping and praying you come back

Now I know there's no chance of that

Now the days go by one by one

While I slowly lose my mind

I push every day but still see no one

Tell me have I really died?

You were all I dreamt for

A beautiful soul lost in the cold world

An essence so kind and pure

No your just a memory I'll hold for sure

Because life is changing so fast

I thought our time together would last

Hoping and praying you come back

Now I know there's no chance of that