The pain

Dear heavenly father, I just want to start off by saying thank you for everything you’ve been doing for me. Thank you for the past that you’ve been pushing for me. Thank you for believing in me, but I just wanna talk for a minute. It’s been feeling like I have been lacking because of sin and I don’t know what to do. You let this girl get wrapped around my finger to pay. I don’t know if I’m gonna let her go or make her my future life has been a lot of things that I’ve been through and I don’t know if I want to push it all upon you I think I should let you go, but I don’t wanna let you go. There’s a lot of things I can’t hold on, but you are the only one I want to. This is my pain. This is my story. I’ve been happy and sad I have my ups in my down. I’ve been fighting through the good and the bad but now I don’t think that there’s that much good left so don’t have any father provide me with your strength, provide me with the peace. I know I talk to you a lot and there’s only so much I can talk because you know what I do in my life I’ve been smoking, lying, manipulating into. I’ve been weakening, destroying the only person that I can call home and I don’t know whether or not I can hold this power in. I don’t know whether or not I could keep fighting off so damn how many father let your power have named in my life and let everything you’ve been helping me do and work towards prosper in 2026 thank you

The room is loud but I’m alone,
Your jacket’s still by the door.
Every laugh feels borrowed now,
Like I’ve heard it all before. I keep checking my phone at night,
Like your name might still appear.
Funny how the smallest silence
Can sound this loud in here. I miss the way you said my name,
Like it meant something true.
Now I’m learning how to breathe again
In a world without you. The clock keeps doing what it does,
Moving on without a care.
But my heart’s still stuck on yesterday,
Wishing you were there. If time could hear me begging,
I’d ask it just to stay.
Just one more ordinary moment
Before you fade away. I miss the way you said my name,
Like I wasn’t passing through.
Now I’m singing all these broken lines
‘Cause I still miss you.

Sad, rap, hip hop, house