Whiskey and the Rain

I'm sittin' in this motel chair

With a bottle of whiskey in my hand

Drove all night across three states

Just to tell you where I stand

Outside this window neon glows

Inside these walls the shadows stay

And every song upon the radio

Sounds like love slippin' away

I love you baby, always have

But I'm not the man you need

Every time life starts goin' right

I find a way to make it bleed

If I gave my heart completely

I'd be afraid of what I'd do

So tonight I'm drinkin' whiskey

Instead of comin' home to you

You'd be waitin' at that bus stop now

Under that umbrella from the shore

The one we bought on that beach trip

Back when life was somethin' more

I can see the rain around you

See you searchin' every passing light

Thinkin' any minute I'll pull up

And hold you through the night

I love you baby, always have

But I'm not the man you need

Every time life starts goin' right

I find a way to make it bleed

If I gave my heart completely

I'd be afraid of what I'd do

So tonight I'm drinkin' whiskey

Instead of comin' home to you

You thought I was with my sick aunt

When I vanished for a while

But I was runnin' from myself again

Livin' reckless mile by mile

When I finally found my way back

I knew exactly where to go

But you'd forgive me in a heartbeat

And that's what scares me most

I've learned to sail through troubled water

Keep my head above the waves

But when happiness gets close enough

I start diggin' my own grave

Maybe some men fear bein' lonely

Maybe some men fear goodbye

I fear havin' somethin' beautiful

And watchin' it die by my own hand

I love you baby, always will

That's the hardest truth I know

'Cause lovin' you means walkin' away

And lettin' someone better hold you close

Tomorrow I'll be gone forever

Headed somewhere far from view

Prayin' you'll never forgive me

'Cause you'd be happier if you do

So I'm sittin' in this motel chair

Bottle almost dry and gone

While the rain keeps fallin' on that town

And you'll wonder why I never came along

I hope someday you stop rememberin'

The man I wanted to be for you

And find the life I couldn't give you

Beneath that old umbrella in the rain.